Post by Brighitta on Jul 4, 2006 17:59:31 GMT -5
I found this in a fanfic, and loved it to bits. So...vague, and hauting, and bloody beautiful...
SILENT HOURS
"I love you in your silent hours
Adore your captured grace
That look, like fleeing smiles that haunt me
How can I stand to wait?
Yet passing, trying, walk don't run
Won't let me go with you so near
A look, an almost fleeting touch
I am yours but you don't hear.
How can you move so unaware
Of this fire burning full of need?
This ache within my heart that's yearning
Wanting you to so want me.
A breath I steel to walk beside you
Filling the void of muttered breath
Like a shadow close beside you
A rumour just a pause from death.
I take that scent of you in passing
Take that breath that you exhale
Savour it like sweetened ashes
Would follow willingly through hell.
Your silence is my own destruction
Beauty more than flesh adorned
What I glimpse in you so bleakly
Ties my words in knots and thorns.
To bed I go and do not slumber
Toss and turn and slowly break
The care I have to mend others
Cannot touch my own heartache.
You look but do not see my yearning
Accomplished liar I've become
Holding the truth behind sharp fiction
Filled with scathing wit I run.
Bleeding where no eyes can see me
Halting breath holds back the tears,
Professional while in your keeping
I cannot stop my foolish fears.
The terror when I found you taken
Tortured, bleeding, dying, dead;
Anger, sorrow, love not fleeting
Passion muted in your bed.
Tended, soothed, brought back to living
Cruel the fashion of that tide,
The mocking man is gone, forgotten
For just a moment of your time.
Gently, slowly, let me mend you
Take your body to my own,
Let my lips with no words spoken
Love you as I bring you home.
Unyielding, firm, still in deniel
Hazy eyes at last awake,
See me, need me, for a moment
Weakness stirs and hard walls break.
I am shamed that in your torment
Loving you made my heart soar,
Tending as I cursed what ailed you
Left me bleeding, wanting more.
Now the slur of sleep and torture
Clear your mind, your eyes are clear
I can hardly bear to see you
Trembling just to stand so near.
Fearful you will find me wanting
Terrified that you will see
Someone you do not want beside you
A shopworn angel, that is me.
Tentative, the hand that travels
The vast distance to my face,
So gentle that it steals my sorrow
Turns me to your inward grace.
A soft smile, eyes so knowing
Tenderly they lecture me;
All love acknowledged though unspoken
The pieces you now give to me.
Tears bedeck pale cheeks in wonder
Beyond the glitter is your touch,
Then your lips on mine engulf me
Paradise can do so much.
The patter of my racing heartbeat
The way my body cleaves to feel
The way you silently embrace me
Only this for now is real.
You hold me as I cry forever
Frightened you would surely die
That he in his mad delusion
Would take from me a love denied.
But you have freed me in a moment
Silently I see the truth,
Begging as my hands adore you
Love revealed you love me too.
I love you in your silent hours
Adore you in that captured grace
Still my body to your passion
Joined with mine we mould this space.
To curve the arc of your smile
To the mirror of your eyes
I'm in love but I can't shatter
All my pieces you describe.
Beauty is not the fashion
Of your body or your mind
It is reality inside you
Something others can't define.
My eyes caress your inward spirit
My breath in you completes a need
To join and merge so completely
There is no longer you or me.
I raise my hand to touch your shadows
You bring your sweet lips close to mine
Dazzled by your sudden brightness
Drunk and dizzy from your wine.
We love slow but deep and often
Flowing ceaseless without haste
I love you in your silent hours
Adore you in your captured grace."
SILENT HOURS
"I love you in your silent hours
Adore your captured grace
That look, like fleeing smiles that haunt me
How can I stand to wait?
Yet passing, trying, walk don't run
Won't let me go with you so near
A look, an almost fleeting touch
I am yours but you don't hear.
How can you move so unaware
Of this fire burning full of need?
This ache within my heart that's yearning
Wanting you to so want me.
A breath I steel to walk beside you
Filling the void of muttered breath
Like a shadow close beside you
A rumour just a pause from death.
I take that scent of you in passing
Take that breath that you exhale
Savour it like sweetened ashes
Would follow willingly through hell.
Your silence is my own destruction
Beauty more than flesh adorned
What I glimpse in you so bleakly
Ties my words in knots and thorns.
To bed I go and do not slumber
Toss and turn and slowly break
The care I have to mend others
Cannot touch my own heartache.
You look but do not see my yearning
Accomplished liar I've become
Holding the truth behind sharp fiction
Filled with scathing wit I run.
Bleeding where no eyes can see me
Halting breath holds back the tears,
Professional while in your keeping
I cannot stop my foolish fears.
The terror when I found you taken
Tortured, bleeding, dying, dead;
Anger, sorrow, love not fleeting
Passion muted in your bed.
Tended, soothed, brought back to living
Cruel the fashion of that tide,
The mocking man is gone, forgotten
For just a moment of your time.
Gently, slowly, let me mend you
Take your body to my own,
Let my lips with no words spoken
Love you as I bring you home.
Unyielding, firm, still in deniel
Hazy eyes at last awake,
See me, need me, for a moment
Weakness stirs and hard walls break.
I am shamed that in your torment
Loving you made my heart soar,
Tending as I cursed what ailed you
Left me bleeding, wanting more.
Now the slur of sleep and torture
Clear your mind, your eyes are clear
I can hardly bear to see you
Trembling just to stand so near.
Fearful you will find me wanting
Terrified that you will see
Someone you do not want beside you
A shopworn angel, that is me.
Tentative, the hand that travels
The vast distance to my face,
So gentle that it steals my sorrow
Turns me to your inward grace.
A soft smile, eyes so knowing
Tenderly they lecture me;
All love acknowledged though unspoken
The pieces you now give to me.
Tears bedeck pale cheeks in wonder
Beyond the glitter is your touch,
Then your lips on mine engulf me
Paradise can do so much.
The patter of my racing heartbeat
The way my body cleaves to feel
The way you silently embrace me
Only this for now is real.
You hold me as I cry forever
Frightened you would surely die
That he in his mad delusion
Would take from me a love denied.
But you have freed me in a moment
Silently I see the truth,
Begging as my hands adore you
Love revealed you love me too.
I love you in your silent hours
Adore you in that captured grace
Still my body to your passion
Joined with mine we mould this space.
To curve the arc of your smile
To the mirror of your eyes
I'm in love but I can't shatter
All my pieces you describe.
Beauty is not the fashion
Of your body or your mind
It is reality inside you
Something others can't define.
My eyes caress your inward spirit
My breath in you completes a need
To join and merge so completely
There is no longer you or me.
I raise my hand to touch your shadows
You bring your sweet lips close to mine
Dazzled by your sudden brightness
Drunk and dizzy from your wine.
We love slow but deep and often
Flowing ceaseless without haste
I love you in your silent hours
Adore you in your captured grace."
